Struggling forces

Amir's desperate cry to live up to what his father expects of him has been apart of his life since he can remember. Amir always has his head in the books and aspires to be a writer this. These qualities are the opposite and furthest characteristics from his tough “force of nature” father. Although the two are opposites they are all each other has. When reading this novel and trying to understand Amir and his fathers relationship, a specific quote struck me as i read it over and over again trying to understand why a young boy would think such a thought; ".. after all, didn't all fathers in their secret hearts harbor a desire to kill their sons?" This astounding quote made me wonder how truly different the two were and the lack of love that was openly exchanged. Amir although I believe knew his father loved him; felt that he was never going to be enough. For any child to honestly believe that their father secretly wanted to kill them is something that I cant personally comprehend. Amir longs for someone to understand him, this is a very hard task for Baba (Amir’s father) because has no interest in poetry and can’t understand that a son of his would. I believe that the reality of this love hate relationship between Amir and his father comes to life through Amir’s thoughts that his father’s hearts desire was to kill him. Although Amir loves to be the son of Baba because he knows the comfort and pride that that role takes on he also wants his father to know what he feels. Amir truly longs for a father that will read his stories and understands his need for imagination and fantasy. I believe that Amir feels his fathers love and knows that he tries and cares, and they mutually understand that they are very different and may never completely understand each other. Although Amir’s words and thoughts are drastic, for a young boy they are thoughts that he relates to so that he can understand his and his fathers strange indifferent relationship. Through this quote I think as a reader it allows to really get inside Amirs head and start to understand what he feels heir father son relationship, which also helps us throughout the book to understand why they act the way they do around each other!